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This can't possibly be my fault. I didn't do this to myself, no, the great creator in the sky did this. My programmer made me this way. Paranoid, thoughts everywhere at once, but no where at all. This isn't right, my body isn't supposed to release this many emotions. Amiability while my whole system is screaming to be hurt, to not have to go through this again. I don't think my body can take it again, the agonizing pain of just being here. Not suicidal, not ever, but this pain... this is one of those times where I need as many people around me as I can, to never leave me alone. I don't want to talk about it with anyone, I just want normalcy, I don't want to have to pretend to be happy as I have for the past week and a half. Crying doesn't do anything now, I've used that up, I just want to be empty. You can have all of my emotions, my thoughts, my mind even. Just make me numb.